2/28/12.

Thank you for the warm spring night air when I came out of class today.

IAWL: Asked N about his trip to Chicago, etc.

Verdict: Good, great air.

TWO: Starting to realize a more holistic approach is needed. Need to work more on the relationship with myself, not with others. The former is essential for the latter. Need to set in stone who I am, how I feel about myself, the persona I want, etc.

2/27/12.

Thank you for pizza dinner with pepperoni.

IAWL: Talked to former student Blake today for a while, told him to let me know if there was anything I could do. Started the IAWL ring. When I do someone a good turn for the day, I move the ring from my pointer to thumb.

Verdict: good. I ate well, talked to Blake.

TWO: Gateway persona. Note how "warming up" helps. Going in cold is no good.

2/26/12.

Thank you for cold rye beer. Ryes & Shine.

IAWL: I told R to enjoy the day.

Verdict: Good, I woke up with a dream in my head, of Dad. He was so real.

TWO: Gateway persona.

2/25/12.

Thank you for the cold glass of beer tonight.

IAWL: emailed K today, though haven't heard back.

Verdict: good, I listened to some music and drank a beer and asked K how she was.

TWO: Gateway persona.

2/23/12. (regrouping)

Thank you for the nice weather.

IAWL: I hung out outside the LANG today and talked to people. This will be the new norm. I think I have also forgotten the premise of the IAWL: to do somebody one good turn per day. It is in the back of my head, but I am not consciously thinking about it. I need to tick off one per day, at least. The task is just to make someone feel good in any way I can.)

Verdict: Good, good weather.

TWO: Practice inhabiting the Gateway persona more. g-blog. No objectifying, talk to everyone. Expand my circle of connection. Be more playful. Focus on being happy, projecting happiness, smiling. Focus more on IAWL.

2/20/12.

Thank you for dinner: Broccoli and elbow macaroni with cheese melted on it.

IAWL: I smiled at an old guy today and he smiled back.

Verdict: Good. Didn't really talk to anyone, connect with anyone, but tomorrow I will.

TWO: Practice inhabiting the Gateway persona more, along with the other stuff on the g-cheat-sheet. g-blog. No objectifying, talk to everyone. Expand my circle of connection. Be more playful. Focus on being happy, projecting happiness, smiling. Focus more on IAWL. Focus on CONFIDENCE. 

2/18/12.

Thank you for meeting E at the coffee shop this morning.

IAWL: I could have done better today. Though I was very nice Miriam, my student, told her to let me know if I could help her out in any way, etc. Though I should have said hello to T, and the other girl, K, both of whom work at the library. I did say hi to K, but maybe I should have talked to her more.

Verdict: Amazing. Met E at the shop.

TWO: Practice inhabiting the Gateway persona more. g-blog. No objectifying, talk to everyone. Expand my circle of connection. Be more playful. Focus on being happy, projecting happiness, smiling. Focus more on IAWL.

2/16/12.

Thank you for tuna salad sandwich.

IAWL: Talked to A & T after Peters' class.

Verdict: Yes, good, I talked to some people today.

TWO: Practice inhabiting the Gateway persona more. g-blog. No objectifying, talk to everyone. Expand my circle of connection. Be more playful. Focus on being happy, projecting happiness, smiling. Focus more on IAWL.

2/15/12.

Thank you for the opportunities to meet new people EVERY day, even if I don't always realize them.

IAWL: Talked to PM in the coffee shop. Also talked to L in F's class. But I have to admit I am perhaps slipping in this regard. I walk out of class alone way too often. I should be walking out with other people. The most important skill in life is knowing how to talk to people, and I still haven't mastered this.

Verdict: Good, I think another test is this: Do you go to bed excited to wake up the next morning, eager for the sleep to be over with? Today, yes.

TWO: g-blog. No objectifying, talk to everyone. Expand my circle of connection. Be more playful. Focus on being happy, projecting happiness, smiling. Focus more on IAWL.Need to talk to people while walking out of class. 

2/14/12.

Thank you for a trip to the grocery store.

IAWL: Talked to N and S in Peters' class.

Verdict: Good, I talked to people today.

TWO: g-blog. No objectifying, talk to everyone. Expand my circle of connection. Be more playful. Focus on being happy, projecting happiness, smiling. Focus more on IAWL.

2/12/12 - 2/13/12.

Thank you for The Outer Limits. Though it is hard to be thankful on days like this. I feel very much alone and I'm not sure how to get out of it. Scary. I have been here before, comes in stages and phases. I feel like I need a salve at night, a balm.

IAWL: Asked R what was going on at her place--?

Verdict: good french fries at night.

TWO: g-blog. No objectifying, talk to everyone. Expand my circle of connection. Be more playful. Focus on being happy, projecting happiness, smiling. Focus more on IAWL.

2/11/12.

Thank you for 32 degree weather, the visit to the laundromat, and for spinning class.

IAWL: I am lacking in this. I need to pay more attention to making people feel loved, important, etc.

Verdict: Successful, I went to the laundromat. Went to spinning class and talked to the instructor for 30 seconds.

TWO: g-blog. Be more playful. Focus on being happy, projecting happiness, smiling. Focus more on IAWL.

2/8/12.

Thank you for hot bath.

IAWL: told L to let me know if I can be of any help.

Verdict: good, I enjoyed the chicken noodle soup.

TWO: g-blog. Better use of time. Wake up earlier.

2/7/12.

Thank you for delicious chicken salad sandwich with pickles and american cheese.

IAWL: Sent UM an email with info he wanted. Talked to S in Peters' class.

Verdict: Yes, such a good chicken sandwich.

TWO: g-blog. UJE. Ellipse.

2/6/12.

Thank you for dinner at R's with R & G.

IAWL: I don't know. I asked G & R about their lives I guess, etc.

Verdict: Good, the day was worth living for the dinner.

TWO: g-blog.

2/5/12.

Thank you for NO BED BUGS. And a nice, night visit to the gym.

IAWL: Sent UM an email yesterday.

Verdict: Yes, good, I thanked R today, treated her well.

TWO: g-blog. Also UJE. Last night at the party I should have asked more people about their lives.

2/3/12.

Thank you for swimming with R in the pool with chlorine.

IAWL: I don't know, I went swimming with R today. Last night I offered to bring something to the party, etc.

Verdict: Good, I enjoyed the swim, the rain, too. It poured.

TWO: g-blog

2/2/12.

Thank you for the nice weather, the bike riding.

IAWL: Offered help to L?

Verdict: Good, I went food shopping. Thank you.

TWO: g-blog.

2/1/12.

Thank you for the comfortable bed.

IAWL:  Offered help to Lil. Talked to Les after class. G in the library. Offered to help R with the party.

Verdict: Good, I offered help to people.

TWO: g-blog.